stupidity

seriously..

i feel so down...mybe korg xnmpk coz ak salu cam hepi jer...

cam xde msalah....ak byk pendam...kdang2 ak rse cam ak ni useless....i know i am not that good at academics...pemalas...tp korg tegur la...bkn ak sgaja.... kdang2 ak terlupa....jgn la biar ak camni....klu korg xske ckap la trus terang.....jgn biar ak jd org bodoh....pas2 bile dapat jer peluang kene kan ak blik....ak xpercaya ape yg berlaku but shit happens k....i trusted u.... well people change....i cant do anything about it....  aku rse cam wat salah besar gler sampai kne ignore camni...aku nk tny pun serba salah...yelah..aku ni serba kekurangan...xde benefit pun korg berkwan gn aku....aku ni kan parasit..... hurh...i am so depressed... oh god,help me....give me ways....lame2 camni aku pun xleh tahan...sampai ble ak nk pendam...asyik ikut org....

kdang2 ak rse cam sampah....aku sampah ker?????

first time weh...!!

yeay....today is my first time donate blood....huhu....
best kot...
mule2 igt kn skit...tp it was nothing pn..cam kne ggit smut jer....
then they give me this roti and a cup of hot milo....:)
best gak ar...ti nk wat age la....huhu...
k la....2 jer...
daa:)

Test, Assignments and Rush Hour..:-)

whoarhh...from yesterday's noon...i've been trying to finish the assignment@take home test...the question was quite difficult..just manage top finish it the next morning....we have to go through like 500 pages e-book to find the answer. hurh....luckily it was a take home test....been doing it untill 12 am then i stop because want to do the analysis for the english research about students spenditure. right after finish discussing, i continued doing the test.hurh..it is all hand written...very tiring and my brain feel kinda want to stop operating...Joining Technology sure is a tough subject....gle arh.... mse wat tu ade la stop2....yela..pnat kot klu nk wat straight jer.... hmm.... the next morning i have this TEST 2 for mandarin, xstdy pape kot...
then my fren ckap "xyah gi test la,kte siap kan joining tkot xsempat siap plak"
. "ak pn ckap"klu xpegi test kang fail, cmner?"
"alaa.....amik la mc..ckap ko cirit birit"....
hahaha..he almost got me there but later on i decided to go to the test because i dont have money to have that MC. huhu....yg best nyer..ak gi test nek moto...haha..thnx to bobba....like the pink LC 135. i arrived MFI at 8.05 am...the exam suppose to start at 8 but teacher is nt there yet....finally the teacher came and give the test paper...whn i see the question i smiled. just 5 minutes after that i was out of the classroom.yeay done with the test....i rushed back home to finish my take home test. right in time,i finished my last question at 9.40 am..we have to send it before 10..i start my car and off to the new building. i ran upstairs to the 3rd floor.huh..tggi gler kot...smpi2 cari bilik,..xjumpe...i called my fren...dier ckap kat tgkat 4 kot..then naik la...pn xde jgk....then i call other fren..tutt..tutt..tutt...
"haa.asl"
"ko kt ner"
"aku bru jer antar test,ko?"
ak pn nk antar, blik dier kat mner ek"
" kat blik ARBO lame"
"hah..gler arh" then i hang up and ran to my car and drive recklessly to the old building...gle kn..dkat2 pn nk bwak laju2.... then i pass it to my fren...im tired of running..its his turn to run..huhu..kaw2 pnat.... dah la xtdo mlam....pas2 pagi2 dah kne berlari...gle arh....after dah antar bru la lega....b4 reach home, i went to MAMAK n buy myself teh ais and teh'o...:)huh..

last skli blik la..i was very wet...dont misunderstood k...i mean im sweating la...hish...

huh....pnat nyer...tp bese la..lumrah student...

k la..thats all...xnk merapu...huhu...

daa

i miss you friends!!!

Enginnering Math Quiz

hehe....hye...sjer jer nk tulis nie...
im doing my math quiz right now.....huhu....
i dont even have any idea what am i answering but yeah...its math..
numbers,symbols and equation......haha...
guys...help me...i dont know anything..arghhhh.....

Real Madrid vs AC Milan

tonite im out with my frens....we watch foottball...

huhu...it was quite boring...got nothing to do.....2-0 Real won....CR and Ozil scored....

huhu...tak bleh nk nafikan la..free kick from CR was one of the best.  The best part about tonight is my fren leh lak tido kat kedai mkan....hehe... no need to mention his name la...huhu....:)

dah la...xtau nk tulis ape dah..ni pn tibe2 rse nk tulis something kat blog ak nie....

k la...

till the next text....daa~

miss you guys so much

4.38 am

Just done with my Cutting Process assignment,

well....i want to sleep but i guess i wont be awake for subuh..so i'll wait for subuh than i'll go to sleep...

hmm.... guys, its hard i know....u guys have been helping me since from the start..thnx..really appreciate korg...

ak rse ak nk berubah.... but yeah korg btul..mmg ssh... we hav to change not because of someone else but because of ourself. so aku rase ak akan buat semua nie demi kebaikan aku....

ak pn xtau macam mane tp aku kene wat gak... i've been doing things wrongly....

im sorry...dah brape kali ak ckap maaf: tapi ak xleh nak stop..aku tetap rase bersalah.... apsal ek...

pape pn...nnt2 la ak pkir...ak dah xtau nk ckap ape...

guys,if u guys can help me...please do so...i need friends...:'(

well,depressed again

it was a bad weekend...its all started on friday, i was out with my fren to have our dinner....damn, we were sooo hungry....it was quite late actually...about 1 a.m dinner....we went to tis one place kdai mamak....i waS having my meal when my dad called and told me that my grandma was admitted to the hospital in putrajya..i was very shock n dont know wht to say....i just hope that she's fine....hati xsdap plak tibe2...ak feel very sad n worried....then after finish our dinner......tp smp2 jer kar kete  ak nampak cermin blakang my car pecah...peergh,,,,,mnyirap darah ak....tis is the second time kot....i was cursing everywhere....im so tensed....how could people do such a thing in public area....but luckily nothing was missing.... ad jer yang xpuas ati gn ak...selamaba jer pecah kan cermin orang....xpuas ati dtg jumpe one on one....xcuak ar!! huh.... i had to go back to shah alam to find something to cover the broken window.....we used this black plastic back to cover it.....huh...duit age.... the next morning i went to the hospital to see my grandma,....the whole weekend i just spend my time drive to the hospital.....it was tiring.....im so tensed and depressed....gle ar....pas2 adk ak sorg nie...dah tau nnek skit leh lak lpak gn mmbr..enjoy...pale otak dier ar!! kate pkir family tp nnek skit xreti plak nk blik....bongok'!!!

im so sad and depressed this weekend...i just can pray to god..oh god...please show me the way;...i knw u do this because u care about us....but please also show us the way....we are begging to help us....

i feel so bad right now...i lost a lot of thing and now money plak....how can i live.....