stupidity

seriously..

i feel so down...mybe korg xnmpk coz ak salu cam hepi jer...

cam xde msalah....ak byk pendam...kdang2 ak rse cam ak ni useless....i know i am not that good at academics...pemalas...tp korg tegur la...bkn ak sgaja.... kdang2 ak terlupa....jgn la biar ak camni....klu korg xske ckap la trus terang.....jgn biar ak jd org bodoh....pas2 bile dapat jer peluang kene kan ak blik....ak xpercaya ape yg berlaku but shit happens k....i trusted u.... well people change....i cant do anything about it....  aku rse cam wat salah besar gler sampai kne ignore camni...aku nk tny pun serba salah...yelah..aku ni serba kekurangan...xde benefit pun korg berkwan gn aku....aku ni kan parasit..... hurh...i am so depressed... oh god,help me....give me ways....lame2 camni aku pun xleh tahan...sampai ble ak nk pendam...asyik ikut org....

kdang2 ak rse cam sampah....aku sampah ker?????

first time weh...!!

yeay....today is my first time donate blood....huhu....
best kot...
mule2 igt kn skit...tp it was nothing pn..cam kne ggit smut jer....
then they give me this roti and a cup of hot milo....:)
best gak ar...ti nk wat age la....huhu...
k la....2 jer...
daa:)

Test, Assignments and Rush Hour..:-)

whoarhh...from yesterday's noon...i've been trying to finish the assignment@take home test...the question was quite difficult..just manage top finish it the next morning....we have to go through like 500 pages e-book to find the answer. hurh....luckily it was a take home test....been doing it untill 12 am then i stop because want to do the analysis for the english research about students spenditure. right after finish discussing, i continued doing the test.hurh..it is all hand written...very tiring and my brain feel kinda want to stop operating...Joining Technology sure is a tough subject....gle arh.... mse wat tu ade la stop2....yela..pnat kot klu nk wat straight jer.... hmm.... the next morning i have this TEST 2 for mandarin, xstdy pape kot...
then my fren ckap "xyah gi test la,kte siap kan joining tkot xsempat siap plak"
. "ak pn ckap"klu xpegi test kang fail, cmner?"
"alaa.....amik la mc..ckap ko cirit birit"....
hahaha..he almost got me there but later on i decided to go to the test because i dont have money to have that MC. huhu....yg best nyer..ak gi test nek moto...haha..thnx to bobba....like the pink LC 135. i arrived MFI at 8.05 am...the exam suppose to start at 8 but teacher is nt there yet....finally the teacher came and give the test paper...whn i see the question i smiled. just 5 minutes after that i was out of the classroom.yeay done with the test....i rushed back home to finish my take home test. right in time,i finished my last question at 9.40 am..we have to send it before 10..i start my car and off to the new building. i ran upstairs to the 3rd floor.huh..tggi gler kot...smpi2 cari bilik,..xjumpe...i called my fren...dier ckap kat tgkat 4 kot..then naik la...pn xde jgk....then i call other fren..tutt..tutt..tutt...
"haa.asl"
"ko kt ner"
"aku bru jer antar test,ko?"
ak pn nk antar, blik dier kat mner ek"
" kat blik ARBO lame"
"hah..gler arh" then i hang up and ran to my car and drive recklessly to the old building...gle kn..dkat2 pn nk bwak laju2.... then i pass it to my fren...im tired of running..its his turn to run..huhu..kaw2 pnat.... dah la xtdo mlam....pas2 pagi2 dah kne berlari...gle arh....after dah antar bru la lega....b4 reach home, i went to MAMAK n buy myself teh ais and teh'o...:)huh..

last skli blik la..i was very wet...dont misunderstood k...i mean im sweating la...hish...

huh....pnat nyer...tp bese la..lumrah student...

k la..thats all...xnk merapu...huhu...

daa

i miss you friends!!!

Enginnering Math Quiz

hehe....hye...sjer jer nk tulis nie...
im doing my math quiz right now.....huhu....
i dont even have any idea what am i answering but yeah...its math..
numbers,symbols and equation......haha...
guys...help me...i dont know anything..arghhhh.....

Real Madrid vs AC Milan

tonite im out with my frens....we watch foottball...

huhu...it was quite boring...got nothing to do.....2-0 Real won....CR and Ozil scored....

huhu...tak bleh nk nafikan la..free kick from CR was one of the best.  The best part about tonight is my fren leh lak tido kat kedai mkan....hehe... no need to mention his name la...huhu....:)

dah la...xtau nk tulis ape dah..ni pn tibe2 rse nk tulis something kat blog ak nie....

k la...

till the next text....daa~

miss you guys so much

4.38 am

Just done with my Cutting Process assignment,

well....i want to sleep but i guess i wont be awake for subuh..so i'll wait for subuh than i'll go to sleep...

hmm.... guys, its hard i know....u guys have been helping me since from the start..thnx..really appreciate korg...

ak rse ak nk berubah.... but yeah korg btul..mmg ssh... we hav to change not because of someone else but because of ourself. so aku rase ak akan buat semua nie demi kebaikan aku....

ak pn xtau macam mane tp aku kene wat gak... i've been doing things wrongly....

im sorry...dah brape kali ak ckap maaf: tapi ak xleh nak stop..aku tetap rase bersalah.... apsal ek...

pape pn...nnt2 la ak pkir...ak dah xtau nk ckap ape...

guys,if u guys can help me...please do so...i need friends...:'(

well,depressed again

it was a bad weekend...its all started on friday, i was out with my fren to have our dinner....damn, we were sooo hungry....it was quite late actually...about 1 a.m dinner....we went to tis one place kdai mamak....i waS having my meal when my dad called and told me that my grandma was admitted to the hospital in putrajya..i was very shock n dont know wht to say....i just hope that she's fine....hati xsdap plak tibe2...ak feel very sad n worried....then after finish our dinner......tp smp2 jer kar kete  ak nampak cermin blakang my car pecah...peergh,,,,,mnyirap darah ak....tis is the second time kot....i was cursing everywhere....im so tensed....how could people do such a thing in public area....but luckily nothing was missing.... ad jer yang xpuas ati gn ak...selamaba jer pecah kan cermin orang....xpuas ati dtg jumpe one on one....xcuak ar!! huh.... i had to go back to shah alam to find something to cover the broken window.....we used this black plastic back to cover it.....huh...duit age.... the next morning i went to the hospital to see my grandma,....the whole weekend i just spend my time drive to the hospital.....it was tiring.....im so tensed and depressed....gle ar....pas2 adk ak sorg nie...dah tau nnek skit leh lak lpak gn mmbr..enjoy...pale otak dier ar!! kate pkir family tp nnek skit xreti plak nk blik....bongok'!!!

im so sad and depressed this weekend...i just can pray to god..oh god...please show me the way;...i knw u do this because u care about us....but please also show us the way....we are begging to help us....

i feel so bad right now...i lost a lot of thing and now money plak....how can i live.....

i am a jerk

jerk...

always do thngs wrongly

being rude, immatured, undecisive, dont know to appreciate...

dont know how to differentiate thngs...

thats a jerk...

just being called as a jerk!!!

im so "HAPPY"

mentioning

stop mentioning about it...please....i really dont like it....stop thinking about it again....

if you feel it is right...just dont blame me....i dont like....you dont want to be blame back....

and one more thing...please dont make me pissed off...nape la....ak xwat pape pn kt ko...

ak xksah k ko nk wat pape pn...tp just jgn ulang bnd 2 age...!!!!

tension!!!

aku nk exam esok kot....arghh....

asl ak xleh blaja nie...

asyik pkir msalah./...

nape la aku nie....

jgn jadi org bodoh la rafi....

please.....tp camne ak nk blja....xde mood kot....korg tau x ape solution nyer....

ak dah runsing gler...asyik2 moody lately..xtau asl.....xde ke org yg leh tlg ak...

pning pale otak ak nie...im so depressed......

Tired

aku dah penat...kenapa perlu camni..plz..

rafi...wake up..be a wise man...u know u can thnk properly..

ak xtau la...ak rse cam bodoh gler skrg....aku rase doa orang teraniaya mmg termakbul...what have i done.....all i did wAS wrong...i have the chance to choose...arghhh....damn it....dah2...esk test math...ko kne blaja...klu x..ssmpi ble ko nk jd cmni....back off...!!!!!

Having fun but not happy

guys...wqi dinner was great....haha.... eat a lot....

nasi tomato,satay,chocolate cakes,roti jala and the fruit was good....huhu... taking pictures wit u guys mmg best...

i was thinking to upload the pictures here but since that i have uploaded at FB...korg tgk kat sane dah la...

mlas la ak nk tggu smpi dier abis upload...haha...btw the singing part was not my plan...but i enjoy kareoke...haha...i guess the microphone loves me...haha.... very tiring but worth it...

tapi lam enjoy2 tu ak xdpt nk rse happy....ak xtau asl...ak rse cam something wat ak rse camnie...guys its not a small matter k...i dont know why but i just need to know why.....i feel so stupid not knowing things that is happening to me... i need to calm down...damn....dah la 10.10.10 ni ad test 2 engneering math....pergh...pning pale..xpe2...ak kne study tul2 nie..come on rafi..u can do it... (DL la konon...haha). i need to get back to myself...my friends...help me...show me the correct way to do it..... k la...

stop being like this rafi...u know u can do it!!!

P/S: In order to be someone, you must first be yourself and a person who never makes mistakes never makes anything.

Blame on me

aku dah sakit kan hati orang...
bapak ak aku,....adik2 aku....kwan2 aku,....orang yang pernah sayang aku...
aku sendiri xtau kenapa aku asyik ulang benda yang sama....
at the end....i hurt myself too....why?? ak just nk jd normal....jd seorang manusia....
kenapa....?? aku ni mmg xlyak kan.....sumpah aku terase...aku tau salah ak.... tp people make mistake...
 ak hrap ak xbuat kesalahan yang sama...i know theres someone still dont want to forgive me....that's why i cant live in peace...misery its the key to everythng that i do..kn..?? thnx a lot....it does make me realise that i was wrong....i was being rude....i have made a big mistake in my life....ak xpandai nk jadi seorang abg yang tau jaga adik...seorang anak yang xtahu nak balas budi...seorang kawan yang xtau menjaga hati dan perasaan...this is because i was being so selfish..not matured...stupid...but ak try nk ubah 2....sometimes it feels good doing things that i like but it feel much more worst to know that people get hurt because of you...
arghhh.....i just cant forget it....help me god....u're the only one that can show me the way....klu btul la thats the right one.....show it to me.... i dont want to hurt anybody anymore....!!!!

p/s: i love my family...my frens and people that i care of!!!

Favourite

Horlicks
Basketball
Singing
Movies
Eat
Debate
Red,White and Black
Sushi
Lamb Chop
Manchester United
Dance

Thats all i can think off in a minute....till another minute...daa
miss la...

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